I like to say I have an "addictive personality". That explains a lot, or at least, it serves as an explaination for a lot of behaviors, but I'm not sure how effective that acknowledgement is. It may be normal human behavior to gravitate to those things we enjoy, and without the presence of a chemical component, an addiction to something like...oh...poker!...seems a misuse of language. People DO become addicte to gambling, but this is different somehow.
Already I have the following "problems":
An addiction to junk food.
An addiction to booze.
An addiction to cigarettes.
An addiction to gossipy chit-chat.
and now
An addiction to poker.
I'm really a pretty sorry individual.

Of course, two years ago I was addicted to "frolf". So were CJ and OTIS by the way. Every day, around 4, our group of aging dopes would slink away to toss a collection of specialized and over-priced frisbees into an 18 hole "course" of baskets at the local park. THIS IS NOT A GAME!
We had the "driver", a heavier and flatter disk for those long tricky throws, the mid-range disk for those second and third "approach shots", and a softer wider "putter", because God forbid, you wouldn't be caught dead rattling the basket chains with some hammer-handed driver.
By the time we'd played a year CJ had set up a "frolf blog". It wasn't public really, but was just for the frolf LEAGUE we set up. That way we could track our average scores and handicaps. We had regular tournaments and discussions of frolf technique and theory. And, again, all of us had plenty of gear.
Mine is a green shoulder bag designed just for frolf. Its crammed full of multiple disks for every possible shot. The special "fly die" driver with its swirl of colors, the multiple mid-rangers for use on various uphill..downhill...obstructed-by-a-tree shots. It was pretty damn important to me and it still is. I put a special nail in my garage wall just to support that bag and it still hangs there. I haven't played frolf in at least a year.
NO, REALLY, THIS IS A POKER POST:
The other night I was playing at CNR in my home office. (Let me just say the "office" is a room above the garage with a ping pong table and a 27 inch TV...my wife and kids call it the "boy room" but I think "office" sound more productive) Next to me, on my old chair, sit the new set of WORLD POKER TOUR chips that my mother-in-law gave me for Christmas. I haven't used them yet. Granted, I still use poker chips but most good home games and tourneys come equipped with chips of their own. Most times, I just shuffle a handful of chips while I play online.
To date, I have poker bonue whore accounts active at CNR, Party, PokerNow, Empire, and UB. I have money in every account. For the past 6 months or so, I've overcome variance enought to post a profit at each of those sites. That's good considering I was well down when I first started serious play. But does th winning mean this is any less of a so-called addiction? I doubt it. I was awful good at frolf.
I'm also fairly certain I'm not the only person battling this problem. Just look on this site. Here's a comment from BadBlood this week :
"I've been banned from poker today :) Family time will make my standings at CNR go way down. I'll have to make up for it Wed. and Thurs."
Sound familiar?
And here's part of an Otis post..also from this week :
"I disappointed my wife, I think, by being on the poker machine when she got home from work Friday night."
I think every married man, or woman, among us has been there too.
So what is it about poker that makes us neglect our families? I don't doubt for a moment that BadBlood and Otis would agree with me that our families are FAR more important that our hobby. But each night as I log on for another few, or few too many, hours of digital shuffle, I wonder why I'm not playing with the kids or chatting up the wife. I just f'n LOVE poker and I ALWAYS want to play.
Sometimes I log on the minute I get home from work. I'll play for hours. Then, I'll log off to pick up the kids from school and go to the gym, then, before bed, I'm back online. Rack 'em up before hitting the rack.
Now, this isn't to say I'm NOT a serious player and just some sloppy addictied dope. I do take the game seriously. I'm VERY serious about money. But I wonder if what I'm doing is really a lifelong passion or just a hobby. Just an addiction. I wonder if my poker chips will be gathering dust beneath that nail in the garage.
Your thoughts?
I wonder the same thing all the time...I guess only time will tell.
Posted by: Human Head at January 19, 2005 8:11 AMIt would be easier to quit if I kept losing. Winning these small amounts keeps the flicker of hope alive that someday those amounts will be significant enough to make a difference.
What is it about poker that makes time fly? I sat through 2 fucking hours of American Idol with Mrs. Blood last night and it seemed like a damn eternity.
Since when did family time include Ryan Seacrest????
Posted by: badblood at January 19, 2005 8:17 AMI had a special glow in the dark driver for night games...
Yes, I do know what you mean and have been considering this topic for a future post. I will be giving this some thought and will post in the next few days. I believe this is a common phenomenon and I have some ideas as to what's happening.....
Posted by: Maudie at January 19, 2005 8:29 AMMan, I'm going through the same thing.
"Poker isn't going to change your life." - Mrs. Big
Probably right (Damn, I hate to admit THAT!), but neither is the boob tube. She's right about spending time with the kids, though. I've been pretty good about not playing when they're home, lately.
BSN
BSN
Posted by: BSN at January 19, 2005 8:55 AMI hate that hobbies inevitably get labeled an addiction. My dad spent hours drawing and oil-painting when he got home from the grocery store if he wasn't too tired. My mom would, and does, spend hours working on/at the church. I spend hours and days working on my wife's hobby internet radio station, and it's not even MY hobby.
Poker is a solitary hobby, but then so is painting. In each of them, you have to decide if it's worth doing well and whether the time spent doing it well is worth spending. But it doesn't make it an addiction, just because you enjoy it.
Ooo, listen to me - Oprah, Jr.
Posted by: Scott Chaffin at January 19, 2005 9:12 AMIt's easier to have an addicition when you are a college kid without a lot of responsibilities, maybe I'll get it out of my system before I get weighed down, maybe not. . .it definitely is an addiction though.
Posted by: Gamecock at January 19, 2005 9:21 AMexcellent post. i've battled this over the years...quite frankly it (poker) seemed much more bizarre of a hobby/pursuit when it was just me toiling along, pre moneymaker/wpt. hell, it was kinda lonely back then, come to think of it.
but now everyone and their brother is into poker. it's insane. i literally have to pinch myself to make sure i'm not dreaming. not to mention this big ol blogger community we have going. never in a million years did i expect this....
so i'm just along for the ride, addiction or no. i'd consider my poker habit to be more of a journey than anything else.
end. rambling.
Posted by: iggy at January 19, 2005 9:51 AMIt's not an addiction, it's called living. Of course, most of us wish we could make a living doing it, but then it would be a job. Would it still be fun?
So, it's a "hobby" we all enjoy. That's it.
The great part about poker is that it can take a lifetime to get tired of it.
Posted by: Easycure at January 19, 2005 10:12 AMFrom the Oxford American:
Addicted: 2. devoted to something as a hobby or interest.
Hobby: An occupation that a person does for pleasure, not as his main business.
Compulsive: 2. An irresistible urge.
Maybe we should blame Edison, or the guy that invented the On/Off switch.
So now I'm addicted to a hobby, with a compulsive urge to out fox the other guy.
Isssh.
Posted by: junctionjoe at January 19, 2005 10:18 AMI think we all have things in our lives we want to escape. Either work stresses, or marriage issues, or being second best to Otis, or whatever. Sitting down at a Poker table (at least for me) is the ultimate in total concentration. I focus on what cards do I have, what did that guy do last time, what are my odds to make that, how can I get my odds right for the next street. The cards are easy. They can be cruel and stressful sometimes but there is always an answer to them. Life is not always that simple.
Posted by: SirFWALGMan at January 19, 2005 10:23 AMWell, at least G-Rob isn't addicted to crack anymore.
Posted by: Marty at January 19, 2005 10:46 AMEh, I've got the same sort of personality -- for some reason, I prefer to think of it as "obsessive", rather than "addictive". Shades of grey, I suppose.
I've got bags of juggling equipment, racks of recording equipment, two entire storage bins full of rock climbing gear. Enough instruments to form a small band -- or perhaps a chamber orchestra -- sit quietly in my coat closet. I've got four or five PCs worth of spare parts in the garage. The nice road bike I bought to do a bunch of triathlons now occupies the back wall of the garage; my expensive speed-wetsuit is still hanging in the guest bedroom shower, where I hung it after my last race two years ago. I could go on, but you get the idea.
I've been playing poker for five years or so, off and on, but only "regularly" (online -- haven't been in a casino in months, maybe a year) since August or so. Since I've been playing "for real" (whatever that means, given that I graduated from "microlimit" to "small stakes" in November-ish), I've turned my initial $20 buyin into enough to pay for a couple of the toys sitting in the garage. This is the one activity that I've tunnel-vision honed in on that hasn't regularly cost me money; which is especially well-timed since my daughter was born a little over a year ago and the discretionary budget is quite a bit smaller, to say the least.
Whatever it's labelled, it's still definitely a hobby for me. None of these activities -- poker included -- could earn me a livable salary, and that's what I use to differentiate "hobby" from anything else.
Addiction? Eh, probably not. Obsession? Sure. Hobby? Most definitely. Lifelong passion...?
Well, I'll know in about twenty years.
In the meantime, there's hope: I started using my recording equipment pretty seriously about fifteen years ago, and the last event I taped was this past autumn. It's not *all* just sitting around gathering dust.
Posted by: Tapin at January 19, 2005 10:52 AMNerve=hit.
Posted by: Otis at January 19, 2005 11:50 AMI think "hobby" crosses over to an actual serious pursuit the minute poker turns from a fun night out or some gambling thrill seeking, to a game where you see "ah-HA! there's skill to this and I want to learn to play better!" But - people can be addicted to both hobbies AND serious pursuits (the workaholics of the world - quite addicted to the serious pursuit of a career). I wouldn't say I'm addicted to poker... infatuated, maybe. :)
Posted by: Shelly at January 19, 2005 12:16 PMI wouldn't say addicted is the right word either. Some nights I get home from work and "have" to play right away. Other nights I just don't feel like playing. A few days ago I realized I've been playing horribly, so I've taken some time off to study a few books.
My Mom is a smoker. She's addicted so cigarettes. She can't go several days without one. That's the difference I think. I can go several days without poker. I've done it many times since I started playing over a year ago and I know I can step away at any time.
I don't always want to step away, but I can. If I was addicted, I'd "need" to play. I've never felt like I needed to play poker...I've just wanted to really bad!
Posted by: MtDewVirus at January 19, 2005 12:33 PMIMHO:
I think it's a fun hobby until you are playing poker instead of spending time you normally would with your wife/kids. Then it's an addiction. Fine line. If your family life suffers = addiction. In my humble opinion this will vary by family. Some require more attention than others. Long and short of it is that if poker is now using some of the time you used to spend with family, then I would say WHOOT WHOOT addiction. Take a step back and examine if it's worth it.
I guess it all comes down to what is poker replacing. Is poker time replacing the time you used to play frolf and go for drinks with the boys? fine. Are you playing poker instead of going to watch your kid play their sport(s) of choice? Hmmm, might be time to re-examine your priorities.
:me gets down from soapbox.
Posted by: Jordan at January 19, 2005 12:37 PMBack in '86 I was yanking off eleven times a day, so this poker thingy doesn't really seem so bad.
Posted by: Daddy at January 19, 2005 1:13 PMAddiction is a strong word that we overuse as a culture; we're too convinced by talking heads on television that everything is pathological. Myself, I consider poker a marginally profitable hobby that, if I continue to apply myself to it, could become more rewarding over time. The game itself is incredibly rewarding, of course, but I've found in myself a willingness to put in the work to improve my skills and that's something I haven't come across in many other parts of my life. So many other things I ought to enjoy leave me feeling empty - poker doesn't. I'm not going to argue with that.
Posted by: Jason at January 19, 2005 2:11 PMMaybe we can be treated for this, because addiction is a disease. Do you think I can go on medical disability to deal with my disease of poker addiction?
On a serious note, lets go play some disc golf!!! I swear to god, poker is too sedentary to do as much of it as we all do. I've gained 20 pounds since we stopped going disc golfing, and started sitting in front of a computer constantly. NOT JOKING, lets go this weekend.
BTW, speaking of addictions . . . well, I just might have become addicted to reading all these damned blogs constantly. I blame you guys.
Posted by: Team Scott Smith at January 19, 2005 2:26 PMI know exactly where you're coming from G-Rob. My comments were way too long for here, so they're in my latest post on my site. It's a delicate balance, but one that needs to be found.
Posted by: Sean at January 19, 2005 6:06 PMI would like to take some time to comment on this addicted to poker thing, but it took me all day to hustle up a buy in and I am a little busy with 6 games on the screen.
Posted by: Jon at January 20, 2005 1:12 AMNext time youre in town CJ, Lets schedule a Frolf Tourney the day after our Poker tourney, and we'll see who kicks whos ass.
Posted by: Team Scott Smith at January 20, 2005 8:47 AMYes, I was the king of the WYFF league, but I did forget about TeamScottSmith's remarkable abilities as well. My record on the 18 hole course was a 49. I also had 5 aces. My average score was right around a 55. I kicked G-Rob's a$$ on a regular basis!
But I'm more addicted to poker... perhaps because its easier? I still have the dozens of discs in my home, but haven't pulled them out in awhile.
Posted by: CJ at January 20, 2005 9:15 AMCan G-Rob beat anyone in anything CJ? heh.
Posted by: SirFWALGMan at January 20, 2005 9:30 AMFunny Daddy
Posted by: Easycure at January 20, 2005 9:39 AMYes, G-Rob kicked my a$$ on the basketball court. Of course, that was pre-knee issues. I think I could take him now!
Posted by: CJ at January 20, 2005 10:46 AMMy record was also a 49 our favorite course, I still play on occasion (Like once every 4 months or so). I'm surprised to say, I'm still playing around a 52 average.
That said, 5 aces ??? . . . this is a poker site.
Posted by: Team Scott Smith at January 20, 2005 11:04 AM"There is a fine line between a hobby and mental illness" - Dave Barry
Posted by: MuleFace at January 21, 2005 12:46 AMCall it what you will, but to me, "addiction" (and its negative connotation) is a state where your hobby or interests cross over into interfering with your responsibilities, with your ability to make correct decisions regarding family, work, or other.
God knows I've been there.
This poker jones has certainly been a catalyst to some frank discussions between my wife and I. I think we've come to an understanding where she understands the benefits of this pursuit. Likewise, I've made inroads toward not letting my quest overwhelm me.
It's a daily battle.
Posted by: Joe at January 21, 2005 11:35 AMBefore playing poker I played a lot of Civ3 and other computer games. Now I don't. At all.
At $40-70 a pop, games aren't cheap. A lot of people who play games buy several of these in a year, and I'm still playing poker with other people's money.
I also don't watch any TV, and haven't in years, really.
So if the average American watches 3 hours of TV and I'm spending those same hours making very small gains in my bankroll, I can't see why my way of passing the time is any worse than others.
Then again, I should probably get up off my butt and spend more time outside in the sun.
Posted by: StudioGlyphic at January 22, 2005 5:06 PMGet Beth to play. And isn't Mormung about the age when she could learn?
Posted by: Uncle Ted at January 22, 2005 5:49 PMI used to play a MMORPG called Dark Age of Camelot and 4-5 hours a day right when I got home, I started to play. I would play all weekend neglected my friends and family. I still don't know if my poker addiction is a step up or a step back but... it is more controlable after seeing the crumbling effect that gaming had on my most precious relationships (wife, son, family, and friends).
Once you sit back and look at your "addiction" and see that you CAN have fun while maintaining a healthy relationship with those around you. At that point you won't have to worry about the poker chips gathering dust beneath the nail and continue to enjoy this "sport" we play.
Good luck to you G-Rob, hope you find that happy medium as I did.
Posted by: Drizztdj at January 24, 2005 7:54 AMFunny. People still watch T.V. for hours upon hours and tell me that poker is a bad investment to make. I'm like, who the hell are you? Talk about bad investments. As for the family thing...you should build a bankroll in one account and take the family on a nice trip with it and show them what poker as afforded them.
Posted by: Joaquin Ochoa at January 24, 2005 8:26 AMSounds like my addiction to online poker...
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